It’s amazing how one word can cause such an emotional response. You hear it, and tears well up in your eyes and suddenly life looks different. You’re reminded of the total lack of control we have over our lives…try as we might, we can’t protect ourselves from everything.
The person who seemed kind of invincible, or at least immune to these kind of things, suddenly isn’t. You realise that they won’t be around forever, which you’d known before of course, but it feels closer, more real.
Then comes perspective: it’s only a scare. Investigations to be done, but nothing life threatening. No amount of months left given, no treatment needed. And yet in those moments before understanding that, those life-crushing feelings were raw and real.
Cancer. They found some cancer cells. In my Dad – my Dad! My kind, loving, generous, cycle-loving Dad, what’s cancer doing in that mix?
It is only a scare. They found some cells in a mole that they removed, and need to check that none made it out into the lymph nodes. Dad said that 5 years or so ago, he’d just have had to sit it out and wait to see if anything developed, but now there’s some sort of tests they can do to find out – praise the Lord.
And yet…and yet. It’s been there. It was there, on him. And in the future, some level of skin cancer is likely to crop up. Life hasn’t changed since he told me last week. And yet it has. I’m reminded of the unpredictability of life, all sorts of things can happen. Then this verse comes to mind:
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own.” Matthew 6v34
Now there’s some words to live by.